Back to School

It is that time of year! The summer has come to an end (for teachers and students) and we are back to the groove of things, I guess. This past week  I started back to work. Instead of being at Putnam teaching first; I was offered a position at a local school East Newton teaching Special Ed. The school is only five minutes from Tanner, so of course I accepted! So far I have enjoyed the school and the people there; they are wonderful! Everything is going good....EXCEPT.....have to leave my child! This, I do not like...at all.
         I know I was very fortunate to have had the chance to stay home with him his first four months of life, I still don't like the fact of not spending all day with him. I realize he is in a wonderful place and could not be taken care of by anyone better than my mother in law. It is still not the same though. I am still adjusting to the change in schedule( I do not do so well with change.) Getting home earlier in the day is so wonderful and I am blessed to be able to have a job that I can do so, but leaving him smiling in his bed is horrible! I see that perfect little smile all the way to school and throughout the day. Looking back I can remember saying I could NEVER be a stay at home mom. If this child has proven anything since he has been born, he has proved that parents definitely eat their words! I would not mind staying home with Tanner every day if I could!
           I kept telling myself all week, that this wasn't so bad. Leaving Tanner wasn't going to make me too miserable. Well, I lied to myself! Friday it finally hit me. I don't know if it is the change in my job mixed with missing him during the day, but I honestly have to say that I struggled to keep a happy face! I am still adjusting to EVERYTHING! It is going to be harder than I thought!  I can't wait to go and pick him up and see his sweet smile and feel his love! Being away makes me appreciate being his mom so much more!